OBLITERATED

Let’s paint the town red

This week.

with 2 comments

SYF’s over.
Boy I did cry a lot on Tuesday.
Once when Mrs. Cheong came to talk to us, once after we played, once after we got the result, once when I was thinking about everything that had happened when I was lying in my bed.

Silver.

Tuesday was horrifically tiring. Both physically and mentally. It drained me from head to toe (if there is such a thing). I don’t know how I could be so tired because on the stage, I didn’t feel afraid. It was only before and after that scared the hell out of me.

How could I have been so airy, flat and out of tune?
How could my bird solo have been so horrible, but everyone still saying it was okay? I didn’t even sound like a bird.
How could I have performed so badly?

I didn’t play my best, and that I know.

How come the standard’s so high this time?

It really scared me to see so many people crying so badly. It really did. I was helpless to comfort any. I didn’t know what to do.

Tiredness dragged on towards night as I moped around the house. I didn’t feel like studying. I didn’t feel like doing anything.
Tiredness dragged on towards Wednesday. It was horrific. As the clock ticked its way to midnight, I struggled to stay awake as I tried to practice sums on inequalities and matrices and listen to my Mum explain to me. I tuned out several times because I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
Tiredness dragged on towards today, too. It was nightmarish trying to stay awake during HCL lessons (doesn’t help that the teacher is nightmarishly boring). After school, Eunice and I went to Macs to have lunch, then make the card.

Tomorrow’s the last day he’s going to be in our class, and I don’t know what to expect.

Now I know why I thought that tomorrow was going to be different, but I couldn’t pinpoint why. I can’t believe I forgot.

And, no, I don’t act ‘elmo’ okay.

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Written by obliterated

April 19, 2007 at 1:02 pm

Posted in feelings, thoughts

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  1. Of cos u dun look lyk elmo, u look lyk ERNIE!!~ lol. And dun b sad =) cuz if u do, i will have to give euu something to make u laugh: a tickle! I owe u one, 4 one u gave me quite long ago!!! ^^ YAY!!!!~ N euu onli tagged once… Im not happy!(JKJK, i happy) :DDDD

    mianbao

    April 19, 2007 at 1:46 pm

  2. TAU BE PROUD THAT YOU HAD PLAYED FOR THE BEST BAND IN YOUR HEART AND KNOW THAT ST NICKS IS PROUD OF YOU ALL:) smile! go on out and amaze the crowd during the nationals yeah? and like i told you I’LL BE HERE FOR YOU, ALWAYS:)

    MIN

    April 19, 2007 at 3:01 pm


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