Oh, Shit.

Okay we got back our PPRs last Friday.

To cut the long story short, it’s an L1R5 of 24.

But it’s not to say I didn’t study for my tests or try my best in everything. Everything’s going down the drain, though. I’ve been under-performing for everything, in my studies, in Band, as a councillor, everything.

AND IT SHOULDN’T BE THIS WAY!

THING IS, I DON’T KNOW WHY IS IT THIS WAY.
😦

My parents were lamenting about my Math results. It’s one of the first times that sort of thing happened.
Mum was talking about wanting to talk to the FT about how the entire class is doing for Math and she was talking about how she feels, maybe the Math teacher is not competent enough, too slow, can’t teach properly.
I got pretty miffed.
Dad then said, “Why are you being so defensive? If it’s not her, it’s you, you know.”

However much I’m unhappy, I admit he is right.

(he usually is, and that sucks)

So yesterday, after 4 hours of Flag Day (why is it called ‘Flag’ Day? Where are the flags?), I went for Math tuition with my cousin. And my parents started discussing about extra tuition for me, with my cousin. And I was more than a little annoyed because they didn’t discuss it with me first. Once I stopped being angry though, I realised what they are doing is for my own good. And it really is. Of course they want to see improvements in my results, of course they’ll like to see me get another grade apart from an F9 for Add Math.

Of course I myself would like something better.

Am I not paying attention in class? Am I just sleeping through all that shit? Am I just copying notes but not absorbing anything? Do I learn things slower than others, especially in the area of Mathematics?
Or am I just pure lazy and ignorant?

Results, results. Amazing how your mood can change with all these stupid numbers and slips of paper.
*slumps in chair*

I’ve heard the FT nag a trillion and one times that this year is the ‘O’ Level and that we all should get that registered in our heads and start revision and studying and not wake up only two weeks before the actual examination and just die.
I don’t want to be like that!

I won’t be like that.

I’ll go do some of my holiday homework.