OBLITERATED

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Got to Say

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I’ve been thinking again.

I don’t want the O Levels to come.
I want the O Levels to be over.
I don’t want the O Levels to be over.

Yeah, you read that right.
I did type that.

See, once it’s all over, we’ll have a hell of a time for some time after that.
Then,
it’s time to go.
Time to leave St Nicks.
I don’t wanna
Time to go some place else

A whole new place

(emailing someone is making me getting used to type like this 🙂 )

Be glad for this opportunity to go “some place else”
I’m trying to.

But what makes me more scared about going than going itself,
is that I’m being way too horrible a person this year
All those terrible monsters inside all suddenly unleashed
I’m a bad person.
I’m no longer that patient/understanding/sensitive to others.
I’m bad-tempered, getting increasingly vulgar, cynical, unfeeling.
O Levels is no excuse to behave this way.

I don’t want to leave knowing I didn’t patch up
Even if I can’t stand those people I can’t stand
I want to apologise because I know I’m wrong
Even if technically, I didn’t commit any crime.

This has been bugging me quite frequently now.
More recently.
I’ve got my conscience.
What am I going to do about things?

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Written by obliterated

August 9, 2008 at 8:09 am

Posted in Uncategorized

5 Responses

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  1. Things we cannot change, we accept.
    It’s never easy. Life’s never easy, but it Goes On, even if we don’t want it to. mmm little monsters eh. I think everyone has them. hah me a good example. (; Things will somehow iron out themselves don’t tire yourself out like that alright (: AJA!

    jo

    August 11, 2008 at 4:22 am

  2. haha emailing me ah? ;DDD
    and emailing is so killing me :/
    can we not email :/ its a bore and a dread!
    we only like reading and not typing ;D
    &&& cheer up, your birthday’s coming soon!

    christine

    August 12, 2008 at 2:15 pm

  3. TESSA YOU’RE THE MOST WONDERFUL PERSON OMG. :/ no one else has been more patient with me before! Even given my character. And don’t you feel for me? 😦

    Hee beee happyyyyyy 🙂 Listen to more jazzzzzzzz and swayyyyyyyyy to the music 🙂
    (I really dislike the idea of you leaving 😥 )

    Really love you, (can I please give your birthday present late? omg :/)

    Karon

    August 14, 2008 at 3:05 pm

  4. If you’re a bad person, I should go burn in hell right now. Mhmm, I should!

    Ethel

    August 16, 2008 at 11:16 pm

  5. HEY TESSA! DONT BE SO HARSH ON YOURSELF LARH. i’m sure your one of the kinder souls around. 😀 i’m sure those people w understand you. and and stay happy okay. 🙂

    shanna

    August 23, 2008 at 12:58 pm


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