Twilight

Went to watch Twilight with my sister and brother today! A strange new experience, going out to the cinema with my siblings. Not unpleasant, though 🙂
I understood what the movie was about because I’d read the book. I don’t recommend watching it if you haven’t because you wouldn’t understand many things in the movie. I wish Bella (Kristen Stewart) had injected more emotion into her character because her face seemed glum throughout. Even in scenes such as when she was leaving her father’s house, when she had to shout at him, her face barely registered anything. Her voice is good at projecting emotion though, I’ll give her that. But I thought she sounded quite constipated at the scene in the ballet studio, screaming and writhing on the floor when she had her leg broken and arm bitten by James. I did like Robert Pattinson as Edward though. The colour of his contact lenses is beautiful.
I did like the fight scene during which James had his neck broken (and brutally too, by Alice).
I found Rosalie (Nikki Reed) a tad too bitchy for my liking, although I knew she was supposed to be unpleasant and unwelcoming towards Bella. And Jasper (Jackson Rathbone) was amusing throughout the movie because he looked like he was permanently in shock. It was funny to watch him.
One thing I don’t understand is why Jacob Black (Taylor Lautner) and his friends all have long black hair.
I didn’t like the part where Edward revealed his skin to sparkle in the sunlight. It was supposed to be set in a meadow! That was my favourite part in the book. To my dismay it was in a small cramped area in the forest. The ‘sparkling’ music they played when he exposed his skin made his sparkling skin more than fake. I was unable to appreciate it.
While I guess the movie was alright, I did feel that the vampires had faces too white. And that is especially obvious in the last scene, where Victoria (Rachelle Lefevre) watches Edward and Bella slow-dancing at prom before turning around to descend the stairs. Her face was caked with make-up and she didn’t have that great a complexion either.
Don’t watch the movie if you haven’t read the book or did not like the book or do not like movies with typical lines of love stories (such as new girl catches attention of handsome vampire and they become a couple). Otherwise, perhaps you’ll enjoy it 😀

THE BEST GRAD NIGHT EVER!

IT’S GRAD NIGHT TOMORROW! ALL THE WAY, EXCO 😀 WE CAN DO IT. WE’LL PULL THIS OFF EXCELLENTLY, AS WE ALWAYS DO!

(I’ll miss all of you, yeah.)

Friday the 14th

Prize presentation ceremony in the morning today, which was followed by the 2nd Student Council Investiture. Let me just say that I am proud of our successors- Alison and the entire Exco. Organisation of the investiture was good and everything ran smoothly. (Our dances were better, though :D) I also understand now, however, how the Red-Badge Exco felt when they weren’t informed about the merging of the PMB into a Student Council, just like us now, who were unaware that the lower secondary monitorial board will be merged with the Council.

But it doesn’t really concern us anymore, right? Our last only concern is Graduation Night..

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Eunice and I then had a pleasant lunch for 2 hours at J8, the better part of which we spent recounting the different episodes of Mr Bean that we’ve watched. It was nice, very lighthearted and enjoyable. We laughed at each other spewing crumbs of apple crumble all over the table and made silly faces and imitations. As we were walking to the MRT, an Old Auntie beckoned me over to help her stand up. She was sitting on a stool.

“I’ve got high blood pressure, I can’t stand up by myself, could you give me a hand?” she asked in Mandarin.

I must’ve looked a little wary because the next thing she said was, “Don’t be scared, I only need you to help me a little here.”

So I reached over and took her hand.

At that moment, Lydia came over. She bought $2 worth of tissue paper from the auntie. Eunice bought $1. I didn’t only because I didn’t have small change.

The three of us spoke to the auntie for a minute or two. She told us that she was living alone, and that apart from high blood pressure, she had cancer, heart disease and poor eyesight. The auntie was also rather overweight. We asked her if she went to the doctor.

And the safety pin that she must have used in place of a button on her shirt had come undone, which Lydia pointed out. She pinned it back.

Auntie then put her stool on top of the trolley of tissues she was pushing, and made off in the opposite direction. We told her to take care.

Lydia also bought more tissue from another lady standing close by, who was blind.

It really touched me, it really did.

But it pains me even more because I am helpless when it comes to helping people like Old Auntie.

What love?

Back, Somewhat.

Only two more papers to go before the end of the O’levels. It is strange, but I am finding it rather hard to believe that all these years of studying I have put in for this major exam have come to an end. No more having to worry about Nick Bottom the weaver, or about how to do Integration, or how to write an English report. No more of it. Ever again. It’s difficult to decide if it’s something to be happy about. The four years in SN are ending, they really are.

I wish I treasured them more.

I’ll do a quiz so I won’t continue posting about stuff that I don’t like to think about.

01. What have you been doing recently?
Studying, studying, studying.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
I used to, until I realised it was rather inconvenient to turn it on every morning and realise I left the house forgetting to bring something along. 🙂

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
I was sleeping. Students who’ve recently been studying too much need their sleep.

04. When did you last cry?
Sometime this week. But it was only a tear of two. Does that count?

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
A little.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
8 points, more time in SN, to forge better relationships with my family and friends, to read more books, to go back in time. To love more. To forgive more.
Y’know what, I want too many things.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
I run in the rain and then laugh at myself looking like a wet chicken.

08. What’s your favourite thing to have on your bed?
I need my blanket.

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
uh..shorts?

10. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say?
I’ve kept all the texts that are nice in their own way.
Those wishing me all the best for the O’levels, for example. Thank you.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
I suppose I do.
I’m complicated.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
I’ve been studying. My head’s filled with academic facts and nothing else. To conclude, I can’t remember because I haven’t caught one in ages.

14. What are you proud of?
All the right things I should be.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
One that dates back to 5th June from Christine, telling me to get something back from Australia for her 🙂

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
“…Jeremiah was a bullfrog”

17. Do you have any nicknames?
Yeah. Many.

18. What does your last received text message say?
STOP ASKING ABOUT MY MESSAGES, YOU SUCKER.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
In the wee hours of the morning… 🙂

20. Are you currently happy?
I suppose I’ve got reason to be.

21. Who gives you best advice?
It depends. My parents, I guess?

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
I think I’ll prefer eating it with strawberries.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Mum.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Yeah…something always is.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Stedman. He does gay stuff sometimes.

26. Do you wear toe socks?
No.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Mum.

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
That’ll come in time…

29. What annoys you most in a person?
Whining, dishonesty and two-facedness, to name a few.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
-blushes-

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Never have, never will.

32. What is the colour of your room?
Untouched, pristine white.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
I’ll like the money without the killing, thank you very much.

34. Do you believe in the saying: talk is cheap?
No. Who hasn’t been touched or inspired in some way by a speech, or a song?

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Me, myself and I.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
I can’t remember. (which means I haven’t been hugged all that recently…sigh)

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Haha…my parents? (it was my sister I kissed. And that was wayyyyyy back, okay? I don’t even remember it)

38. Do you have a life?
Yeah, but it kinda pauses when I have to answer these intruding questions…

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn’t die?
I don’t ever wish to do such a thing.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
Don’t have a profile song.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Eunice? Well, I only heard her screaming “I CAME OUT FIRST! ME FIRST!” actually. (We were having a bathing competition in my dream.)

42. Last time you smiled?
Well, today.

43. Have you changed this year?
Very much, indeed.

44. What are you listening to right now?
The sounds from the TV.

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Nope.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open, all the time. I don’t like falling into drains unlike some people.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
There are several, actually.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
Perhaps that’ll happen in the future.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yeah, but not like I excel in doing so.

50. What was the worst idea you’ve had in this week?
Answering the Prose question in the Literature paper? Stupid Andy and the Royals.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
Bathing?

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
It’s currently non-existent.

53. What song best describe your love life?
I’ll tell you next time.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
Enough about my love life?

55. Who always make you laugh?
Family, as well as friends. And because I’ve been studying, and everyone knows that studying too much makes you a little wonky, I’ve been laughing at people that aren’t funny too.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Mandarin. Oh yeah, Singlish.

57. Favourite website(s)?
Don’t have one.

58. What’s your middle name?
Don’t have one either. Unless you’re asking for my Chinese name?

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
QUANTUM OF SOLACE! Shopping at the Club 21 bazaar again, maybe?
…Doing Chem/Bio MCQ practices.

60. What do you think you are like?
I told you, complicated.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
Family. Loved ones. Yeah.

62. Where have you been today?
Kusu Island and the Club 21 bazaar.

63. What game do you play often?
I’ve been studying, remember?

64. Who are you missing right now?
Many people. But we’ll get to meet soon, it’s okay.

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
I’ll like to have both.

66. What are you doing right now?
Wasting my time with this stupid quiz! Well at least it’s stopping me from typing lengthy, boring posts.

67. Which primary school are you from?
Coral Primary, in the humble suburb of Pasir Ris.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Green, orange, red.

69. What emotion you like to show?
Huh, I dunno.

70. What is your life to you?
The most important thing I could ever have. What is anything else worth if you don’t have your life?

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Talk about it. Think a lot more about it. That’s what I do.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Friends I’ve been missing.

73. Who do you admire most?
Quite a few people.

74. Which month are you born in?
August!

75. How are you feeling right now?
A little depressed, yeah.

76. What is the time now?
1:17am.
No wonder I’m depressed.

77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
(what horrible English) She’s complicated also, I would say.

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
I haven’t dyed it yet.

79. Why are you doing this test?
I thought I explained why already…!

80. What do you do when you’re moody?
…Think about it.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
Before I’m 30.
I don’t want to be an old spinster.

82. Who is more important to you?
As compared to who?
(see, what horrible English)

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
Thank my parents, family and friends for giving me the best life I could ever have and tell them I love them.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Does it matter if I trust people already?

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yeah, because most of the time, I do. 🙂

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
That I would have a bathing competition?
And this time, I would bathe faster than Eunice?

87. What is your goal for this year?
The time for making goals is over.
The time to play starts soon.

88.Do you believe in eternal love?
Well yeah, sappy as it might seem, I think I do.

89. What feeling do you love most?
Being loved, and loving.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
That’s not a proper question, is it? But yes, the Earth’s heating up due to the _________ gases trapping the ____ under the _____ layer. Chemistry, eh?

91. What feeling do you hate most?
The feeling of hurt and pain.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Need you ask?

93. Do you believe in God?
Yes.

94. Who cares for you most?
Those who do.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
There are just too many to name…

96. What will you bring when you fight?
My…courage?

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
Not going to disclose here.

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
It really depends on that someone.

100. How do you feel now?
That it’s time to log off.

Goodnight, and goodbye. Time to log off.

See you again, soon.

Life’s Not A Story

“And I guess that’s where the fairytale ends.”

Today we had our last Mission in SN, by Father Simon and all the team. Tears fell again, as they had in Sec 2 and 3. Today’s impactful story was by Auntie Cecilia. To us, it’s a story that we hear and we shed tears over and we think about for awhile. But because it didn’t happen to us, we forget. But to someone else, it’s real. It happened. I am always touched and inspired by these people.

Everybody has their own painful secrets. And everybody needs to find some way to mend.

Sometimes I wonder why I am here on this Earth, why some are born poor, why people kill, why things happen, why feelings change, why the world has colours, why we suffer pain and in the end, why we leave. It’s not a book you open to read. It’s a book you open to write in, for others to read.

Life is good,

so I shall be thankful.

 

 

 

 

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That’s One Thing Right

NO
`fiddling of the necklace
`being at a loss of words
`awkward, lengthy pauses
`continuous prompting

DURING THE EXAM,
THERE WAS/WERE NO
`fiddling of the necklace!
`being at a loss of words!
`awkward, lengthy pauses!
`continuous prompting!

It feels good to get the Oral right. I cannot describe what a marvellous relief it was to have it done- I wanted to skip along the corridor of the Home Econs lab. I was tempted to smile too.
I came out from the room realising my heart wasn’t pumping madly nor was adrenaline coursing through my veins (which would have enhanced my vision, increased my heart rate, etc. etc) nor was I shaking. Miracle? You bet.

I do believe in miracles.

I hope I worked one today.

Let Me Repeat That

I HATE LIZARDS
I LOATHE LIZARDS
I DETEST LIZARDS

I HATE THE WAY THEY MOVE
HATE THE WAY THEY ARE THAT PALE, DISGUSTING SHADE OF BEIGE (OR BLACK OR PINK OR WHATEVER)
HATE THEIR DETACHABLE TAILS
HATE THE WAY THEY SQUIRM
HATE THE WAY THEY WIGGLE
HATE THE TRANSLUCENCY OF THEIR SKIN
HATE THE WAY THEY APPEAR OUT OF NOWHERE (WHICH ONE JUST DID, GIVING ME A HEART ATTACK)

AND MOST OF ALL,
I HATE BEING AFRAID OF LIZARDS

A lizard was at the window sill.
My laptop was almost touching the window sill.
I was sitting in front of the laptop.
Hence the lizard was right in front of me.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

It was fat, beige and I’m not sure if it was dead or not.
I think it died after climbing onto the window sill
Because my dear brother of 8
Picked it up with a tissue paper
& threw it into the toilet bowl

Now it’s flushed down the loo

Goodbye

101 Days

One quick update.

101 days to the O levels.

5 or 6 tests next week?

In school by 7:15am tomorrow morning.

NBC at VCH by 9am on Sunday. SNSB BRAVOOOOO!

Being busy takes the time away 🙂

WTH

I foresee revision to do and homework to complete and (text)books to read and revision to do and tests to study for and school to go to and lessons to sit through and revision to do and lack of time to panic over and stupid things to laugh over and stupid things to cry over and revision to do and emails to read and emails to type and letters to write and posts to write and important things to worry over and stupid things to worry over and shit to panic over and incidents to make me smile and things to make me break down. And revision to do. And revision to do.

Oh yes, lots of things coming my way.

Okay wrong time for Gmail to be doing maintenance or whatever. It’s not loading and I’ve clicked the ‘Refresh’ button 456 times and you probably guessed it, I’m pissed.

PLEASE, GIVE ME A BREAK. PLEASE.